It has been a few months since I last wrote a post. I’m not sure it is because I ran out of things to say, but more that life got in the way.
Life.
Nothing that mind-blowing has happened to me, or mine – except maybe the starting of school, another crisis of confidence at work, a sneaky new-ish car and some pretty damn good TV programmes…..Yeah, the latter has taken up its fair share of my evenings over the last few weeks. Strictly, X Factor, Cold Feet, Dark Angel, Masterchef, Suits – they have all become an important part of our family life.
Maybe it’s escapism? Maybe it’s laziness?
Anyhow, this morning on a chilly and flood-ridden drive I thought once again about my blog. I hope I can still refer to it as a blog?
My immediate thought was that, once again, I’ve started and unlike John Humphries from Mastermind, I haven’t finished. I’ve thrown myself into blogging, passionately and bordering on obsessively for almost 9 months and then just as quickly, it has evaporated away. It sidled onto the ‘too hard’ and ‘too time-consuming’ pile without me even realising it had gone.
In my defence, there was a stressful period of migrating my site to a new host, getting caught up in wordpress database hell which didn’t help matters, but this whole process has an air of familiarity.
I’ve done a lot with my life. Jumped in with both feet on many occasions, with all the best intentions, hours and hours of commitment and thought, enjoyment and an honest belief that it would continue forever. Musical instruments, gymnastics, athletics (well, one session), writing poetry, playing squash, using MyFitnessPal, getting monthly manicures – they are all what the untuned eye might call my ‘fads’.
Things that I am interested in but then I lose interest.
I disagree.
You see, I still have an interest in all these things, and I still wish I did all these things. But life gets in the way.
Life.
I’m not a completer-finisher, and that’s ok, because my life is made up of experiences of all these things that I fling myself whole-heartedly into and that is what makes me me and what makes my life.
I’m a jack of all trades and a master of none. What’s wrong with that?